I used to…

I used to spend so much time responding to everyone else, being there for everyone and them not being there for me I am going to start making more time for me.

How is that possible when you have two children, a house and housework to do. I think it is working out a balance and it will certainly be easier when Bell starts Pre-school in September I will have Monday mornings child free!!! (as much as I adore, love and miss her I need some me time )

I am going to start to get into my spiritual side, with lot’s of relaxing meditation calming music and read up on Buddhism .I won’t swap my religion I am Spiritual I believe that every religion has good and bad points and its how you use what you know to fulfill your needs.  I am going to start eating more healthy (we do eat healthy but some days are better than others)

I am going to let go of all the negative things in my life and focus on who wants to be part of my life and who doesn’t. Life is far to short to worry and make time for people who can cut you out of their lives whether its family or friends. Please do not get me wrong I am all for Second chances but it won’t be me making that move.

Call it childish, immature but at this present time in my life I need to focus on myself and my family. I need to look after myself and take time to relax and enjoy life and not let everything sit on top of me.

I am not sure how it works I am such a worrier, I have to check my bank that I have paid my council tax, rent etc at least 4 times!

I have to double check the door even three times before i go to sleep. i worry that the children will go missing, I worry I am not doing enough for them, I worry I am not earning enough, to support the children if anything happens to Hubby.

But I am going to give it ago, This is a new chapter in my life’s journey and I am excited where it will lead…..